Why Most of us are afraid to think ?

 I recently was reading one of the marvelous books, titled " Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*ck by Mark Manson,(spoiler alert incoming, and I am not gonna apologize because this book came on September 13, 2016, and if you haven't read then it's on you people, anyways..) and in the 4th chapter he talks about how people are very bad at not realizing basic emotions like what makes them happy, unhappy and angry even after, becoming a full fledged adult and how we all are onions with a lot of layers inside us! And that's when it hit me, I started thinking about what makes me happy, unhappy, and hopeful. I immediately took out my phone opened the notes app and started typing things vigorously. I could easily list what made me sad and mad, happiness not so much, but that's not the point of this blog, that's something to talk with my therapist during my next visit. Anyway, after writing some things that make me sad like my feet smell gross and how my hair never looks combed, I came to realize greater truths that were a little harder to accept that I hate when people make me feel worthless. Before you guys could come for me saying self-worth is something that comes from inside and you need to stop putting yourself in all these situations, my brain was 2 steps ahead of you all, so save it people( Arghhh..why am I so passive aggressive, now adding it to the list of things that make me feel sad). Anyways after realizing that I suck, thanks to Mark, I was on a quest to know why? and What childhood trauma triggered this in me?  My next step as you all anticipated was asking ChatGPT, It is so useful and I use it as my personal assistant, it knows me better than anyone else, my best friend forever! However, in a flick-second, my brain was like no let's not tell everything to ChatGPT,  it's a great tool no offense. But, I realized something, my best friend who knows everything about me is silently stabbing me in my back. Why? because now more than anything my friend does all the thinking for me and now thinking makes me anxious, I couldn't think much. I couldn't bring myself to think more deeper. I am slowly forgetting how to think. Why thinking is important you may ask, and you may also tell me that it saves up and frees up more time, like now if I have to write an essay or a cover letter for a job all I have to do is copy-paste the job description and give my resume, my best friend will now write a compelling succinct cover letter that is personal and without any grammatical errors. Oh wow, this saves so much time now I can apply for 1000 jobs in a day, is what comes to mind, But, even then on average, I could only apply to 5 jobs whatsoever (okay, getting too personal, let's change the direction), Another example could be asking for recipes, mentioning the ingredients and if you ask for a tasty recipe, in seconds you will be given a recipe to follow from our dear dear friend. Even though our friend is doing all the hard work for us, especially that of the brain, we are slowly losing our roots and eventually, we won't be able to think. I know sometimes you need some third-person opinion and thinking might not give you a clear-cut solution. But one thing to remember, is one of the primary functions of our brain is to think, but now after thinking for a few minutes our brain becomes anxious and starts sweating and now we are like ok, we need a break and go into endless scrolling of our phones, at least that's what happened to me and few people I observed( Shout- out to my roomies, whaddup whaddup? ) whom I secretly used as guinea pigs for this, boring test which brought me to this mind-blowing conclusion. And, I know it's not just me but a majority of people who can feel this. I am still thinking though(phew...so hard), Why are we so afraid to think?